induced.

My blood pressure did not go down, so I'm getting induced tomorrow, its a mix of many emotions, woah.


Just pray everything goes well, let me be lucky.

it smells like somthing crawled in your brain and died-squidward!

:) haha.
I'm awake. Do I wanna be? Nope. But I got up, so I guess ill be staying up.

Doctors at 2.
Mhhm.

Todayyy. :O well...

Imm boredd. Hmmm. Sitting at home, on the computer, i know not my cellphone for once.
hahaha. Listening to my myspace songs, ha, jason aldean<3 , my favoritee. Im trying to find some new music for my myspace, mhhm. but i dont think thats going so great, im still looking.

Sooo, Doctors tomorrow and i find out if she wants to induce me, im thinking if she doesnt madison will prob be late, and thats normally how it happens with the first pregnancy. Im Tired, and starving again, ugh, whatever. maybe tonite ill get to make taco's like i wanted too.

:/

Not in a good mood.
Mhhm.

:)

Busy day I was supposed to be on bedrest, but I went and got the last of the baby stuff, and my school stuff with my mom,

And then we went to winco, I'm tired. Mhhmm. I don't feel like being on my feet anymore. So ill make the tacos tomorrow.

Unless I go into labor haha.
Idk.

doctorss!

Went ok.
Like a good little girl, she turned and is head down!! Yay!

But my blood pressure needs to go back to normal so I'm basically on BED REST! Ahhh!

Monday I go to the docs, and ill find out then. I'd rather not be induced but if I have to be then so be it.

Later tonite I have to go buy some school stuff. Mhhm. So imma go do that but imma walk slow. Haha. Idk. I hate being stuck in bed!!

Imma see if cody wants to come and hangout with me. :/ I hateee not beingg able to do a lot!!

Thanksgiving we mitee be going to redding so all thee fam up there can see her. Idk yet though.

I'm so nervous. I want her here! Oh manh she's ganna be soo spoiled, by everyonee! Ahhh!

I've just been praying, pllzz don't let her somehow gett that nosee! Haaaaa.
She can have codys pretty blue eyes though.ohhh, I cannot wait. Soon enoughh. She will be here!!!

mayybee!

Madison will come tonitee!
:) ohhhh manhh thatd beeee greaatt!

Waiting and watching my body.
I will be up for a whilee.
:D ahh. I'm excitedd.


Plz plz plz!!

:)

At codys, family talkss.

:)

Goodtimess.


Talk laterr everyyonee!

hyperr! :)

Sooo tonitee is my last nite of classes. Awwh mannh.

Madison was due this friday till my doc changed it to next saturday. But I just got a call and they want me in there at 10 instead of 10:30

Hmm.
Cody will be here at 5.

We were looking at my old pics from when me and cody first started dating and how small I was. And cody goes damn u were really skinny I'm like I know!! So I blame him. Haha. My friend mike told him yea jamie had started getting really small and then she started dating u. Haha.

Whatever, its not hard for me to loose it. :) and the pregnancy I've barley gained anything. Yay for me.

I just can't wait to go shopping in november. Mommys buying me a wholee neww wardrobe. :) I'm stoked.being able to go back into hollister without feeling huge will be greatt!

Bahhummbugg.
I'm boreedd.




Getting off.

Byeee!!

umhh. damnn.

I took my sister to school.
I'm back home spongebob is on. blah. I'm bored, my head feels heavy. I don't think I'll be having madison this week. Its still possible but my body hates me. It starts and then stops. Ugh.

Today's plans.
Bee bored-from now till 12:20
Then see myy codyy, hopefully
And then we have lamaze tonite.aww, the very last nite. Haha.

Tomorrow. I have to go get some more school stuff.
And I need to get ahold of my school, and find out what's going on. Mmhmm.


Blahh.
I'm off

:) :)

I can't even wait.
Hmmhmmhmm.
I'm glad we have goals.
And I'm really hoping we meet them all.

I can't wait till she gets here its only a few more days, 11 to be exact. Unless she decides to come early or late.

Waiting is funn. Nott.
I'm craving cake, oh or cherry pie would be nice!

I can't wait till next december!
Hopefully by then we will be able to buy our little house.it'll be so nice if we can, bcuz we could have our famlies over to our house for dinner, and it wouldn't be the moving back and forth with maddie. But if we stay in bakersfield hopefully it will only be till she's 4. Have I mentioned we hate this damn town!
It gets worse by the day. Were planning on taking maddie to the snow this winter, and she'll get to go trick or treating or somthing, we still haven't completly decided what she's ganna be. Man my camera is ganna get a big workout in this upcoming year, and then ill be going to the store to pick up the pics to put them in the scrapbook, thank heavens I can drive. I'd love it if we lived by the beach so when family came to visit wed have stuff to go do here there is nothing, and of course someday well have to have some acres to make sure we can have chickens and goats! :) I want a goat, but I want a girl not a boy! I want a cow too, and everyone thinks I'm crazy, but I like em except that they r smelly. It'll be so fun when we go take maddie to see the animals, bcuz she will prob lovee them! Both me and cody love animals. Cody already can't wait to get her a fish tank, a lil one of course. I told him how that would work, ha,bcuz I have fishies, I have a pretty gold one I may have two but they r in codys tank and he takes care of them. Haha. But they r my fishies.
I'm just waiting for cody to get outta school. Its nice that he gets out early. Smartbutt.
I may get word back from my teacher today about my home study, they r supposed to get back to me by next week. Or I'm supposed to call and complain, haa.
I feel like every bone in my body is popping. Greatt! Idk if ill be drinking anymore of my tea bcuz it makes the pain worse. And I don't like it. At least if I got into labor codys right down the street at school, :) I just call his mom and they get him out. That'll be nice, but it'll prob be at night, knowing my luck!
My grandma grandpa and my aunt are ganna be down here sometime after she's born, my aunt said shed give me two weeks to rest but I don't mind I miss them and wish they were all down now! :)
My mommys birthday is soon! :) sep 8
And maddie could be born then! Ahhh! Well she could be born on anyones birthday bcuz there are a lot at the end of this month and september.
I'm so ready for her to be here!
:D

Talk about cravings!

This was like 2 nites ago! Ahh I want moree! If you lovee me ull bring me it! Imma kick codys bootie and make him get me it!

i lovee

My doggy! :) sittin in bed.
Jessie is laying by me, she's mad cuz I put my pillow on her. Haa!

Madison will be here soon! :)
Maybe in the next week! Origanal due date was this friday.

We'll wait and see. Mhhm!
I'm excited, and scared, but I just want my lil girl here! :D

Sitting in bed with jessie! :)

I loveee my doggy! She's purttayyy!

Relaxation!!

:)

woah,

So I drank my tea.
:)

Allens bday is friday.
Lamaze is tomorrow
Along with the hospital tour.
Today, I get to go to north.
Can u belive they wanted me to go to adult school, ha I don't think so I'm ganna have my "north high" diploma!

And they wanted me to come to school a week after the baby is born, uhm, insaine, my mom was livid. So were ganna go down there sometime today, and have the guy write down what hed like me to do, drop out and go to adult school and come back a week after the babys born, when I'm supposed to be in home study for 6 weeks, I liked mr.w a lot more and he acctually knew what he was doing, and we already had worked out this years first few weeks. Sorry if my education is important to me and I don't just want my ged!

I'm ganna be doing a ton of walking today, wonder if that will help with labor, wait and see.

Cody gave me a great massage, and relaxing helps with making contractions worse, its lovely, ha, but its all good.

Lin ryan and my mom all leave to go to nhs and then chs, and I get to watch bubb, and that's easy he plays video games.

Cody has decided he wants to shove me into labor by running over curbs in the excursion, first it was mcdonalds then a parking lot and then his house and I think he mite of done it at ei.

Wow.
I need to get out of the tub and get ready to go. Whatever.

Blah.
I can't wait till next summer, lake shasta, redding, madisons beach trips.

Were already ganna take her to the snow this winter, of course ill have her wrapped in 100 blankies, haha, and the heater will be on.
I'm just glad that me and cody agree on almost every parenting thing, and that we wanna and can go on trips with her.

Its so funni bcuz ppl think oh ur 17 and expecting, and they assume the dads not there, but its a stupid stereotype, that only few have broken, :) I'm glad I did.

Busy day.
After I get done dealing with this pulsing back pain, and this fishy in my tummy and ribs, manh I luvv her!

:D alott!

wowza!

I've just been trying to relax. Not going through anything to painful,I've found my tub to be my best friend, but I'm thinkin imma go lay down, my knees are hurting me, oh and my hips hurt. Oh wow, she's bein active.
Write more later.

38 weeks prego.

I'm thinking I'm supposed to be a lot bigger. People that aren't as far along as me are bigger. Wth? Haha, w/e. :D

update. havent in a while...

I've been pretty busy.
Extra innings is open now.
Yesterday I helped with it.
And it was a lot of fun, I'm just glad that being 38 weeks prego I got to help.
Wanda jinxed me haha, its ohk though, she got me some really pretty prego shirts and I told her, now I'm ganna have her soon, and not get to wear them,haha.

Last nite after getting home from ei, I lost most if not all of my plug, I was having sharp pains, and just plainly freaking out, I'm glad cody was there for me, I was so scared and not knowing is so hard.

So she could be here soon.
Its scary.
My mom is like cleaning the house so if I go into labor my fam can come down to a clean house, she was in my room, while I was trying to sleep moving my crib and tv stand around. Haha. I gatta make sure my rooms ready for her. Ill be doing that with no energy, haa.

But all my bags r packed and ready to go. So after her room is ready completly I'm good. Ha

Well.
I'm off.

Talk about cravings!!

I've been craving carlas for a few days, and my liddle brother just bought me some! :) oh myy yummo!

blahhhh

So we went to parenting classes thursday,oh my I loved it, :) relaxing, cody started to fall asleep,I heard a faint snore, so I moved and he was back up, but I swear its that relaxing, I was so like I wanna go home and go to bed, I wasn't feeling good during the class but I was ok.
We got her take home outfit yesterday,
Its cute pics later.

Tuesday we take more classes.

Wow.

:)

Todays lin's bday.
No clue if were doin anything.

My heads hurting.
Hmm.

One year 8 months

I cooked. :)

1yr8mo. :D

I'm in a pretty good mood. But I feel lazy.
But cody wants to go do sumthing, so imma have to not be lazy, and sleepy.

Hmmm.

I have to go make carson and bub lunch.

Fun! Nott.
:/

thankful.

That god gave me codyy!
:)
Becuse he's the only person I can handle being around for more than a day, he can handle my prego moodswings, and anything elsee.


I lovee him!



One year and 8 months tomorrow!

Yay!
Atleast we had been together for a year before I got pregg.
I think tht helps.

We have to go get her coming home outfit and bottles soon.

Then my mom asked me if I wanted a diaper geenie or the new diaper champ, ahh!

My mom says she glad she can help me with madison bcuz she really didn't have finacial help, or other help, and my "dad" not even really being there she was basically a single parent when I was little, and now allens ganna be maddies grandpa, bcuz he's been in my life more than my real dad and my mom and him have only been together for 4 or 5 years. They've only been married 1.

Lifes hard-u learn to deal.

am i wrong?

I don't belive myspace twitter or facebook, is the devil.
I don't belive that if you have one your going to hell.

Idk.
These are times when I thank the lord that I'm not "penecostal/apastolic" anymore.

Yes I belive in god. Very much so.

Yes I do make mistakes.

I don't belive that the "man" should be able to control his wife, or that he is always rite.I don't belive its rite to call yourself christian and then tell someone they are going to hell, being a christian Is supposed to be about help, and support and loving everyone, god doesn't turn down anyone,he loves everyone no matter what!

I don't belive he cares what you wear, what matters is on the inside and how u treat others, you can't tell me that if I wear a dress past my anckle and sleves past my elbow I'm going to heaven, no way no way! Its insaine.

I do belive in god, I belive in heaven, I always have, and I will forever, I do have my own bible, but there are some things I just don't belive in.


Myspace is not ganna ruin you, or send you to hell.


Well I'm just venting.