6:53-End Time.

Hello Everyonee.
So its 6:30 and im bored, Im at home, sitting in my room, listening to music, being very exhausted. & Blah &Blah.
Well Dammit, im freaking great, My mommy & allen are watching a Nazi ufo thingy.
Hot damn its freaking sunday, the 26th. ohh mann. its almost may, i only have two things really planned for that month but other stuff will come up. May 1st doctors apt. The Diagnostic ultrasound, making sure that madison is a girl forsure, If not we have some cute girl clothes to return and get boy stuff, but im already prepared for a girl, Or lets say preparing myself. Its going to be a ton of work, but i have high expectations, Cody relized that he will probably end up being the softy, when he thought i would be the one, becuase i dont like spanking, But there are a ton of other disaplinary actions to take. Unless cody and i get lucky and have a little angel! Thats alrite with me, Hahahahha. In may i also have the redding baby shower! Idk if cody is wanting to go, hahah, but im hoping, because i want him to be able to meet all my family, He has met my Grandma & Grandpa, & they both like him, but he hasnt really met Everyone, He hasnt met my dad, and thats not Cody's fault or mine, but whatever, may 1st my dad is supposed to go to the ultrasound so well see, i have to call him at 8 and remind him, so if he comes he comes, and if he doesnt then thats fine.

Ive learned that i cant really depend on him, its bad for me, becuase that makes me not trust guys exspecially when your father isnt really there, and you want him to be, and to give you all the love all the "other" Kids get from there daddy's. It really has helped make me stronger, i dont get attached to him, but im hoping with madison he will do better and be more involved with her than he was with me and my sister, I pray for that, he seems deep down and honest about caring about the pregnancy, even though i rarely get calls. Im glad that i get some calls,
I really wish my grandma Martha was still here, she allways Had him remember about us, and i loved her to death, i miss my grandma so much. and im upset she wont be here to see madison, she is up in a better place though. But im really hoping my dad shows up, i will never give up on him, ive come close to, but he is still my dad, and at the end of the day that does matter to me.
But i dont think i'll ever be a daddy's girl.

Im 100% mommy's girl. True True True.



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